How come everytime you come around,
My London, London bridge, wanna go down like -
Hey ho! Guess who finally has internet access again! Haha
It's been fun having Adilah bunk in with me at my cousin's apartment. She's so nice by the way! Stocked up the fridge with pizza, chocolate chip cookies [which we finished], juices, chocolates and ice cream! =)
But this can't keep up or we'll both get very fat, what with Fong Seng just across the road and the discovery of banana cheese prata. Haha.
I ordered the brownie cake from a booth at the bazaar in the forum just now. Hopefully my mom'll like the mini-surprise. Hehe..it's fun surprising people and seeing their reactions.
I want to shop tomorrow. I want to buy the Strawberry bath wash from BodyShop and try to find the Vanilla one. Next to my cousin's bathtub was so many nice&yummy-sounding bubble bath washes which she got from Marks and Spencers. I waanttt!
And I'm so hungryy. I can't wait to finally eat home-cooked food again. This year is the first time ever [barring prom] I buka-ed outside. It's not that fun. My sisters used to buka outside alot and I used the be the only one stuck at home, wishing I could actually buka outside. Now that I can, I realize that the grass isn't always greener on the other side.
Also, I cannot wait to have Shahrul back. Been having so many girl-talk sessions with Adilah which helped me vent what I'm feeling. Hudy and Liza's boyfriends will be entering NS next year. Shahrul has a little left to go before commissioning. And in two years time, he'll be joining me. Am I happy? Honestly? It's hard hanging on. Sometimes I think too much about things then I remember his face at a particular moment or something especially sweet and caring that he's done for me and then I remember that it's all worth it.
It's easy to question a relationship. Don't judge me for that. But when you start questioning it and at the same time, you're still hanging on, that's when I hope you realize that deep inside - you know that what you have is worth hanging on for.
[From Meghna's blog:]
"Just because you can't say something doesn't mean you don't want to, you can want to very much. You can be with a person and be happy with them, and not love them, or you can love someone and not want to be with them. You don't need to love someone...to want them.
Well, it's frustrating.
When what your brain tells you what you want and what you actually want dont match up, it's exhausting. And it's complicated. Well, that's life and life...sucks."
-Grey's Anatomy
